Writing

I like writing in my blog. (Even if I go through some dry spells.) I enjoy crafting words to convey interesting (to me) stories or general nonsense.

I don't like writing/editing at work. To give you a sample of what I'm editing today:

"All fields on the Questionnaire should be filled in completely using proper grammar, punctuation, correct upper and lower case letters (not all caps or all lower case letters) and complete sentences. The Questionnaire will be sent electronically to the opposing member (Acquirer) by clicking “Submit” or can be pended for additional processing by clicking “Pend.” If you click “Pend”, a window opens in which you can optionally enter a follow-up date; if no follow-up is needed simply click “Submit” in the window to bypass the option."

I've read the above passage about 10 times and I still don't remember what it said. It's becoming increasingly hard for me to edit (or sometime write) work material. I don't mind coding the html to make it pretty or make it flow better. I enjoy that usually. But trying to take the above paragraph and make it comprehensible by the average customer service agent is not my cup of tea.

I feel like I'm becoming increasingly negative in my work life (if it's even possible to get more negative than I was about this job). And I'm afraid this negativity is leeching into my non-work life.

I need to focus on more positive thinking so I get a job I'm more suited to. Whether that's within this company or another. I also need to focus on more positive thinking so I can not be a couch potato the minute I leave work, because I'm so drained from being negative all day.

One of the cute things my nephew likes to say is, "Focus, {insert name} !" It's so funny when he does it. So I'm going to try to hear that when my negative thoughts creep in. That way I'll both smile and "Focus!"