A new level of failure (self imposed, that is)

I'm experiencing something new lately. It's a new sense of failure. And I know it dumb. I've always had the sense of failure. I didn't work out. I ate poorly. And through all this I knew better.

So now that I work out most every weekday morning and most weekends, I find that if I don't work out twice a day on weekdays, I think of that as a "failure". I know it's not...as before I never worked out even once a day. But I still feel it is if I don't have a reason to not hit the gym a second time.

Another area where I beat myself up is diet. If I eat 1400 calories in a day (or slightly more), I consider THAT a failure. WHAT?! I used to eat probably double that some days.

Recently I took a wellness test at work that said that if I was sedentary for a day, my base caloric need is 2155 calories. My BASE NEED. Clearly, 1500 calories is not bad. PLUS, I work out on average 45 minutes every day. Again, not bad. And my bodybugg tells me that I burn anywhere from 2400-2800 calories a day (depending on one or two workouts).

But it appears that no matter what I do...I think failure is lurking. I really need to analyze this more, but in the meantime...I'd better work out 2 hours tomorrow.

Blog o' Miscellany

Again...my apologies for anybody still checking to see if I posted anything. I am a bad blogger. I know. Things have been busy, but that's just a poor excuse.

Let's see...what's been happening...

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I've been working a LOT on a redesigned website for my company. It is scheduled to launch on Monday, and it APPEARS we are ready to launch it. But I'm still afraid something will derail that. So cross your fingers that the launch goes as planned.

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Similarly I recently launched a new site for my church. It took quite a few hours and many, many revisions, but I think I'm generally pretty proud of it. Check it out: Lutheran Church of Hope.

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On the bodybugg front, I'm still loving my new gadget and wear it all the time. It's great tool to see what a workout is doing for me and when I need to increase the intensity or length to get better results. Now...I just need to quit eating more at night due to the hunger from working out and all will be well.

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I've decided to put forth a challenge to myself for the next month. It's the "How Many Pounds Can I Lose in a Month Challenge." I think it speaks for itself, huh? I really want to just try to focus on this for a month and see if I can progress a little better. I'll try to update as I go...but you know my track record for posting lately.

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In other news, I'm going to be an aunt again. Can't wait to find out if it's a boy or a girl. For my sister's sake...I'll hope it's a boy. She doesn't want to go through another pregnancy due to the horrible morning sickness she has, and her husband really wants a son.

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Well, that's a lot of bits of unrelated info. Hope you enjoyed. If you didn't, go read Dooce or Roni's Weigh. They're both much more entertaining/informative than I am.

I'm still here...

I guess it's been a while, huh? I really felt like I'd blogged just last week. And well, I haven't.

Anyway...I promise to write more detail. But...for now....

Babysitting went well. Exhausting, but well.

Bodybugg rocks! It's so cool to know how many calories I burn on the elliptical (8 cal./min) vs. running (14 cal./min) vs. sitting on the couch (1.7 cal./min).

Really, I'll try to update more. But for now...it's "Biggest Loser" time...and I need to watch. :) (while burning 1.7 calories per minute.)