I'm experiencing something new lately. It's a new sense of failure. And I know it dumb. I've always had the sense of failure. I didn't work out. I ate poorly. And through all this I knew better.
So now that I work out most every weekday morning and most weekends, I find that if I don't work out twice a day on weekdays, I think of that as a "failure". I know it's not...as before I never worked out even once a day. But I still feel it is if I don't have a reason to not hit the gym a second time.
Another area where I beat myself up is diet. If I eat 1400 calories in a day (or slightly more), I consider THAT a failure. WHAT?! I used to eat probably double that some days.
Recently I took a wellness test at work that said that if I was sedentary for a day, my base caloric need is 2155 calories. My BASE NEED. Clearly, 1500 calories is not bad. PLUS, I work out on average 45 minutes every day. Again, not bad. And my bodybugg tells me that I burn anywhere from 2400-2800 calories a day (depending on one or two workouts).
But it appears that no matter what I do...I think failure is lurking. I really need to analyze this more, but in the meantime...I'd better work out 2 hours tomorrow.
Friday, April 24, 2009
A new level of failure (self imposed, that is)
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The whole "needing to eat" thing is hard for me to grasp too sometimes. Although I can't imagine getting by on 1400 calories a day for very long.
Hang in there; you're doing great and you'll figure out what balance of diet and exercise works for you. And what makes you feel like you're not a failure. Because you're not.
Thanks Annette...
...and 1400 calories is surprisingly easy to do a day if I focus on nutrition and not on fitting that donut into my daily plan. :)
I don't think I could maintain 1400 calories for more than two days while I'm working out daily. I'm just too hungry. You are doing amazing. The sense of failure is just how you are. Try to focus on what you're doign that's good instead.
Oh, and I'm so sorry for slacking on checking your blog! I'm such a bad friend! I just assume that everyone else is being as sucky at blogging as I am. Clearly, that's not the case.
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