I'm not your consolation prize

So, today I'm feeling pissy. Why? Lots of reasons. That was your warning before reading on.

This may come as a surprise to many people, but I'm not desperate for your attention. I don't sit by the phone or pine for an email or a blessed opening in your calendar. How often am I the last person on the list to make plans with? You can tell me. I already know it's often.

I can't count how many times I've been the one who gets the shaft for other plans. Other people are more important, yada yada yada. No, they never say it, but the actions show it. I'm not going to go into specifics because I'm not just talking about one person or even two. This is common in my life. I do realize the issue starts with me allowing this.

And guess what? I'm done with it. I've been making changes in my life lately with working out and eating healthy and all that other crap I've been doing. So this is just one more thing. If you can't plan ahead or keep plans with me, don't bother. I am not the person to call for last minute plans. I'd rather stay home or go to the gym than feel like another consolation prize. I think I deserve more than that. Well, that's the theory anyway. Other people get to feel important. I want a turn.